Word vomit...no, real vomit

Yes i am aware that it is only saturday night and normally i save the weekend reviews for sunday but after last night i officially just want to sleep....and i cant really write about that

SO
Friday.....i did search for the shadow again....of course. Didnt find her, but i did get a clue from another source that isnt the radio and it could be very very helpful haha.
anyway, i went out with Hannah for a bit on friday which was super nice. With both of us workin such gay hours it seems like i never see her anymore :(
So we went to the mall and wandered around for a bit. Then did the classic park in my driveway and talk for a good half hour about life life life

Then i went over to James' because i really wanted to drink for some god awful reason. I haf vodka and wine.......
now, my mom and hannah both warned me that wine is a bitch and mixing it with anything just ruins your life. But im stubborn....and my brain says "its bad?.......prove it"
I don't remember anything....actually. I didnt even know that there was a camera being passed around until i saw facebook,.....i dont remember why Josh tackled me TWICE but i have rugburn ASS.. jk, hearts for u dearest.

anyway, i get home thanks to lovely katherine. I was stupid and had driven to james so i had to leave the car.
i get home, and i was on the phone when all of a sudden my mouth starts to salivate hardcore and i felt all funny So i panice, hang up and run to the bathroom
i puked
i freaking puked
never, ever, have i puked from drinking...
i felt so defeated. But at the same time i felt ten time better that i remember smiling? god im gay
i kinda blacked out after that
woke up in bed, so i get up.....

sigh this is so weak

.....i get up. My pj's are on backwards, face not washed, toothpaste on my chin, shit strewn all over my room, and i go into the bathroom and my clothes from the night before were stuffed in the sink?!?!
oh yes, and i was wearing socks. i was barefoot last night
but i had socks
werent mine
ive been told someone gave me a pair of james cause i was out of place being the only one without socks >_<

so ya, my mom comes into my room,looks at me, and basically says i told u so.

Then i went for dim sum with Cortlin. It was good as usual and i felt good as i was eating it, but about fifteen min after.....ya....not so much. kept it down tho.

work was a joy too, they put me in the kitchens which i finished in half the time so i sat in my closet, shut out the creepy night time sounds and doodled and sang old songs from the 90s.

So yes, im stayin in tonight. My blankets are my fav companion at the moment haha.
i feel so warm and safe.....
the wine can't find me here....

fuck wine