My grandfather, i love you

I remember the multiple hospital rooms Ive gone into to clean. Each one looked the same.
Until i looked into the garbage can, and inside would be a cardboard strip...and i would know what that meant.
The patient had died.
They brought in a brand new body bag.
Cracked the seal, and disguarded the cardboard strip into the garbage.
Zip it up
Moving on.

I never thought about what happened before the strip came off. I never ever even considered it

Until today, all my thoughts were of that stupid cardboard strip
and how the person who found it in the garbage wouldnt care or even consider...
and now im angry
angry at the nurses sitting outside the room, singing some random song and giggling
Bob telling us all to leave. He wanted time with his dad who was in a coma
He didnt want us there when his breathing stopped.
God knows it was terrifying enough when the next breath didnt come right away after the last.

and then mom had to start praying
then Kayla joined in
i didnt

i was busy thinking about that stupid cardboard strip