Today was a rage day.
Rachel was gone since yesterday and will be gone for the rest of the week due to family sad times. Not gonna lie, I love it when its just me and courteny sometimes...until its lunchtime. Then having just two people sucks and I turn into a hyper bitch who hates anyone that dare approach the counter and make me do what Im paid to do :(
I wont go into too much detail, mostly because Im over it. But it sucked
it sucked big time
Getting home was the best feeling ever. For a brief moment I though I was home alone, although my rents have been back from Europe for a week or so now.
Checked my Chem email and the teacher made me feel pretty confident about how things are going. Compared to how I felt about it all yesterday anyway, which was dismal.
Since getting the MORE shitty news from SIAST i just kinda wanna give up a bit. I know that being wait listed isnt a no, and theres still a chance of going this fall, it just made this whole journey feel like a waste of time.
I havent even told Cortlin yet. Im really worried that he'll think less of me. He wont, I know that. But maybe im just reflecting my own feelings through him. Cause honestly I will think less of me.
Besides telling my family and Courteny, this is as public as Ive gotten with the recent news.
Guess Im just feeling bad for bringing you all on the rollarcoaster that is my education with me haha
I just feel like if it doesnt happen this fall, i fail at life kinda.
Wow, that was depressing >_<
sorry bout that!
In a plus, my dress came in from forever21 in like a day since i ordered it, so now i just need a reason to wear it. and i hear its gonna be sunny this weekend?
friggin better be
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